The Rules Of Your Life

For the first 18 years of your life, you have to do what your parents say

The next 18 years, you have to do whatever you want

Around the third start of your next 18 years, you have to do what your body is capable of

Lack Of Motivation 2

The only obstacle keeping me from making my life better is me. I have this handwritten sign on my refrigerator and computer that says “Today I will make my life better” I’d hope that writing it myself would subconsciously motivate me more.

Sometimes it works, I’ll stick to my my diet and exercise, go to bed at a reasonable time every night. Then I break the streak by sitting on the couch, eating every 30 minutes while watching TV till 1 A.M. Recently I changed my weekly habit list and gave myself Saturday to do anything I wanted. Having a day of complete freedom from the list has helped on occasion.

Another thing I do is complain about a circumstance but do nothing to change it. A perfect example is the neighbor’s child who’ll cry for 45 minutes. Do I ask the mother if should could quiet the child? Do I leave my apartment and go somewhere quiet? Do I put on headphones to drown them out? None of those, I’ll continue to sit and listen the entire time while complaining to myself.

I get tired of listening to myself complain, but that’s as far as I take it. I wish I had a house in Pleasantville or Valhalla, with the woods behind it. If wishes were mushrooms, I’d be eating portabella burgers every night.

I read a book on overcoming the fear of success, perhaps I need to re-read and keep reading it.

Online Inspiration

The other night I couldn't decide on what to watch on Netflix despite going through my queue and new releases. Then I thought I could go through my bookcase and decide on what to bring for the Westchester Geek Swap Meet (which I didn't go to) but that meant getting up from the couch and bringing in the folding table from my car.

I looked around my living room to see if I would be inspired to draw with my crayons, read, or work on my stories.

Nothing struck me so I decided to check twitter on my iPod and read that my brother had to delay his book because his laptop was in the shop. I was jealous at first because of his drive to complete a project and having a legitimate excuse as why he couldn't. That still didn't get me going using the excuse I was tired from staying up late the night before and the DST switch.

It’s not like I wanted to run a marathon, it was a simple task of reading or drawing. It was easier for me to complain than to do something.

This was originally written in January 2014, but I'm now just posting it cause I'm that lazy.